a little story for you

Once upon a time, a girl failed to make the school play auditions.

While a cynical part of her had expected this, the other, more confident part of her was crushed.

After all, what was she to think? No Asian girls on the list; she was supposed to be one of the director's "favorites"...How does someone like her not feel pathetic? Was it because of her race? Had she really done so poorly at auditions?

And not to mention she was thrown into another abyss of self-doubt...

On her way to her next class, she sat as people talked of getting dress sizes, and shortly thereafter, hearing those beside her begin to berate the girl next to her.

'Not in the mood for this. Do they really have to be so mean?'

She stalks outside before slumping down. Wanting to escape her classmates who would inevitably see her, she instead makes headway for the band hall, despite knowing her friend wouldn't be there.

She's right. There's only a girl she knows vaguely and a boy in the hall. Feeling awkward, she mumbles something about "hiding" before crashing behind the door and bursting into heavy tears.

Alarmed, the boy pushes his chair back--"H-hey, are you alright? Is there anything I can do?"

The girl shakes her head, wanting to wallow in misery alone. He looks at her doubtfully before looking back down at his work. The other girl gets up.

Still crying, the pulls her knees up to her face. She stares down at her shoes (she had just washed them, how did they get so dirty?), and likes the way her calves slide down into her shoes.

She feels terribly alone, today, and pathetic. And doubtful and mostly just miserable. 'Can't go one day in October without crying...'

Suddenly, her thoughts are interrupted by the other girl. "Can I sit with you?"

Who would say no? She nods at her and the girl with glasses sits down, book and box of Kudos in hand. "Want one?"

The first girl nods shyly and the other boy comes over. "I want one too~!"

The hall is dimly lit and the floor's a little dirty, but she stretches her legs out and stares at her feet.

Before she knows it, the two are chatting and gossiping beside her, and including her in it. She is still miserable, but she's extremely glad she knows these two people now.




I'm always taken care of. ♥